Ever since last November, I've been contemplating all the things I want to get done. I have lists jotted here and there and dreams that don't make it to paper and just simple thoughts that are incomplete.
Now that it's already July (and not even the first of July), I feel November creeping up much quicker than I could have ever imagined. This November I will turn 50 and it's daunting...not the number, but the unrealized dreams and the incomplete projects. The number has never bothered me and while the 30th birthday was a tough one, the 40's were surprisingly wonderful!
I have gained wisdom and a level of observation that surpassed even my own expectations. I have not; however, filled that God-Shaped-Hole that literally leaves this sense of longing and emptiness most days. The closer November gets, the less motivated I feel and the fuller the feeling of failure looms overhead.
Not sure how to get my ideas and dreams from paper to reality and feeling the faith-lack in the God-shaped-hole area.
So...what AM I doing? Well I am praying and meditating on the Word. I am asking God to give me the desire and renew my gifts so that I can once again find and fulfill these purposes I was created for.
And so I start another blog on my writing journey and this one is truly CHASING 50!
Oh and if you find yourself with a ton of free time and are just curious about the journey through the 40's...check it out at my original blog "Can You Hear Me Now?"
I'm very interested in what you'll write here. I'm chasing 50 too. I hit it in January.
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